First Post - And here we go

What I need more than anything is to get off this computer and tend to the million things I'm supposed to be doing. Instead I create a time sucking blog. I can't seem to bring myself to journal by hand, so this will be perfect substitute. A place for my thoughts, insights, advice, bitches and and moans.

The lack of sleep for the past 365+ days is foremost in my thoughts. How much longer can I last without a good night's sleep? Charlie is torturing me!! I find myself consumed with the tiredness and it makes me impatient, irritable and grumpy. I feel intolerant and overwhelmed almost all the time. But its got to get better. He's now 1 year old and surely he won't continue this crazy sleep pattern right?

I'm curious how honest I should get with these posts...at this point I am the only one reading these words so I can confess all - but what if someone stumbles upon this blog and it becomes a viral sensation? What if I win the lotto? What if my children no longer irritated me? What if I had time to meditate and do yoga? What if I had my pre-baby body back? What if I could go on vacation and actually use my passport? What if I followed everyone's advice and didn't marry a man with an ex and child? What if I'd saved money all those years? What if I could buy clothes that weren't from Target? What if what if what if.